Another Monday and Tuesday. My heart continues to beat, but sometimes I wonder how it can with all the pain it feels. This last week brought your sisters and me to New York. I am still trying to recover from the red-eye flight and lack of sleep from all the late nights. It was really nice for me as well as your sisters.
New York was cold, but honestly, this morning in Phoenix was colder. By the end of the day though I wore shorter sleeves walking to pick up your siblings in beautiful low 70-degree weather. Bear Pines is literally below freezing. I see snow for the first time on the 10-day forecast and it might align with our one weekend not currently sold in November, so I may have to jump on and block the dates.
This week has me wondering more about what you might be up to and have been up to over the last 142 weeks. I wonder what you can't do because I am sure there isn't much.
This upcoming weekend is another tournament for Tzvi. It is in Scottsdale and Laeya mentioned it has been a while since we have been to visit you so since we will be in the area we should go. That is now the plan. Maybe I will have some time to work on some more rocks for you.
I started to work out this past week. I know, it is something we never thought I would do, but life has been filled with a lot of nevers. It actually came about because of you. As I was feeling extra down about things HopeKids sent an email about a free membership subscription to an online gym with workout classes. I took it as a sign from you and not only have I joined, but I am on day 2 of week 2 of my 8-week program and I am excited to see the end results. Thanks, baby girl!
We are getting closer to dates I have been dreading since you left, I will take all the signs you are able to send me because I am going to need a lot of them. One month and 3 days until the little man turns 5, and 3 weeks and 5 days until he is 4 years 11 months, and 23 days. It is a mixture of happiness, sadness, fear, uncertainty, and gratefulness. Just come and sprinkle an extra dose of Sonzee strength dust on me these next few weeks, please. Also, maybe pop into Laeya, she has been having a rough time lately and I am sure she could use a visit from you as well.
Anyway, little bear! I love you and miss you so much! Come and visit, please!
Until next time.