Monday, May 31, 2021

69 weeks

Dear Sonzee, 

Today is the last day of May and it also happens to mark the 69th Monday you have been away from us.  This last week was the first official week of summer break for me.  I find myself forgetting what it is that I did the first 3 days, but it was an attempt to get some things done around the house, copious amounts of laundry, and chauffeuring. I find it hard to believe we leave for the summer in less than 3 weeks and there is still so much for me to do. 

On Thursday, aba and I snuck away by ourselves with Mr. Dustin and Mrs. Penny.  I don't think it will ever make sense why it took you and Harper's lives and deaths for us to be part of one another lives, but here we are.  It is such a unique bond we have, and honestly, we had one of our best times away together.  I don't think I have laughed so much since you died, and there was no guilt around them.  In our true Mrs. Penny and ema fashion, we had a lot of dark humor and it was nice to be able to truly feel like myself around her and Mr. Dustin.

Your siblings were able to stay at home and not be sent out to various friends because savta came to watch them with cousin Jessica and her friend.  Everyone had a great time, and Meena even mastered her back handspring (although she has yet to do it for me in person since we came home, but I have a video of proof). Jessica left yesterday and Savta will be leaving tomorrow.  

Not quite sure how time continues to move on by but every week I find it more challenging to process your absence and the distance that seems to build from the last time you were in my arms.  I eagerly await a visit from you in my dreams. I hope you are doing well, having a great time, and staying safe wherever you are.

I miss you so much!

Until next time!

Love always, 

The Mighty Contributor

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