Riverbend

We had the Alexa playing Disney radio this afternoon after Sonzee got home from school.  I feel like more often than not it plays the same exact songs on repeat; songs from Beauty & the Beast, Frozen, Moana, Tarzan, Little Mermaid, and The Lion King are the most often played.  For some reason today I noticed not only once, but at least twice "Riverbend" from Pocahontas came on, I wonder if it has played before and I just didn't hear it, or if today it was just one of those songs that came on because it was so relatable.

I feel like life has given us a swift kick in the behind these days.  These last two weeks especially have been weighing ridiculously heavily on me.  It seems it is just one thing after the other and I have no idea why it feels like everything is crashing down around us.  We have been in the trenches before, but for some reason, this time just feels different. As usual, I have no idea what lies ahead, but this time my heart hurts for different reasons and my gut is yelling at me at the top of its lungs.  It is deafening and suffocating any other thoughts all at the same time. 

It's tough, although I feel like that word doesn't really bring justice to what this whole journey has been and continues to be. But tough is just what it is, and for now "I look once more just around the river bend.  Beyond the shore where the gulls fly free.  Don't know what for what I dream the day might send. Just around the river bend for me"