It seems to be the perfect duet with Sonzee these days. Almost every single phrase I can relate to her life and our situation. From the heartbreaking reality that "Fate is pulling you miles away And out of reach from me", But you're here in my heart". To the literal facts that I am sure she feels, "You think it's easy You think I don't want to run to you But there are mountains And there are doors that we can't walk through". Which leads me to the basic question, "How do we rewrite the stars?"
Oh gosh, if only we could, if only it actually was possible. No matter how many times I listen to the song the words crawl inside my heart and just sit there. These last few weeks have been ridiculously brutal on Sonzee, on Sam and me, on our marriage and general family life. The situation we are placed in is not normal and shouldn't even be considered normal in our special needs, medically complex, "atypical" world. Decisions have been made, choices have been made, but there is no winner. There is no winning in this lottery.
"No one can rewrite the stars", but "Say that the world can be ours". "Say that it is possible, because "It feels impossible...We're bound to break and my hands are tied".
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